Today was my first day at York University. I must say that after only sitting through two introductory classes I know that I’m in for what seems to be a lot different of an experience. I don’t know what I expected considering I am switching from a five hundred person Christian university to a forty-thousand person secular one. My first class that I started was sex and violence in the Hebrew bible. This is going to be my favourite class, I can tell already. The second one was Introduction to Religion.
These classes take on an entirely new spin when you are supposed to look at all faith objectively, including your own. Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, Hinduism, Sikhism and every other ism are all studied in this class and each one is given equal amount of time to state its case. It’s a class of over four hundred and I wouldn’t be surprised if every religion was represented in the class.
Now I’m faced with a dilemma. I’m going into a class where the professor is going to take this ‘religion’ that I have grown up with and grown attached to and stand outside of it and then dissect it. Am I ready for this? The professor said he can usually tell who is what religion by the end of the class because those people get really angry when their own religion comes up. For some reason we are unable to step away from our own beliefs for a while and take an objective look at our faith. Is it because we are scared of what we will find? Is it because we are comfortable and we don’t want to be disrupted? I don’t know what it is. I just know that I want to do this.
For too long I have been huddled up in a Christian bubble at church, school and friends that I am completely oblivious to what most of the rest of the world believes. There are millions of other people that are more passionate about their faith, and their faith is completely different than mine. Why should I be so naïve to think that maybe they are on to something also? Maybe they have something to teach me.
This next year will be somewhat of a challenge for me. It won’t be the typical challenge like what my thoughts on predestination are or have I memorized a certain amount of scripture. Instead, this is something that is going to challenge the very core of everything I believe. Is Christianity even worth it? Does God care? Is Jesus really the Saviour of the world? Those are the kind of questions whose answers are being challenged now.
So pray for me. I don’t want to be so naïve as to think that I can come out of this without scars. I know that this will hurt in some things but I will not stop seeking truth. Truth hurts but I got to suck it up sometime.