I’m struggling with something lately.
I’m trying to figure out what I would prefer.
(and to note, maybe preference is the wrong word choice here, but I’m trying to find out what we think constitutes being a Christian or following Christ, not just what we like the most)
A person who confesses Christ yet lives nothing like it. They party on weekends ridiculously. They sleep around. They live for the moment. They go to church but they go more out of an internal obligation rather than anything else. They are nice people, but really live nothing like Christ is Lord of their life.
A person who confesses Christ yet lives nothing like it. They go to church every Sunday. They go to prayer meetings every Wednesday. They go to bible studies every Thursday. They go out with other Christians every Friday. They read their bibles and pray every day.
A person who does not confess Christ but looks a lot more like Christ than the other two. They love people more than themselves. They are always helping people where they can. They don’t go to church. They are constantly encouraging other people all around them. They give one night a week to being on the streets talking and spending time with the homeless. They have a widowed mother living in their spare room for free.
What would you prefer? I know people that fit all three descriptions. This is the kind of stuff that messes me up about the sinner’s prayer and about decision cards. I don’t understand how Christians can be people who hate their neighbor but have said a prayer or come to a specific conclusion about something but someone who loves their neighbor is excluded until that prayer or belief is made. That makes no sense at all to me.
I hate more and more every day these saved/unsaved categories. I hate that I have lived my entire life thinking that I’ve made it and others haven’t. I hate that my entire faith at one point boiled down to a raise of a hand a prayer. I hate that for the most part many of us Christians would choose the first two people to be part of our church just because they said Jesus and the other one would be excluded. Can we really have the King without the Kingdom? Can we have the Kingdom without the King? This is what confuses me. This is where I am. I don’t even think I understand what salvation is anymore. It’s time to redefine my terms again soon I think.