I’m feeling sort of sluggish today. Its a accumulation of a lot of things, and I realize no one really wants to read a post that starts with the phrase “I’m feeling” but today I got the impression that I wasn’t alone. Perhaps it’s just the dreary weather outside or it’s that time of the year where I question everything I have done or decisions I’ve made. Not sure. But I do know that this post revealed a lot of where I’m coming from. Brian Walsh is one of the few people in my life that I would give the credit to of actually “getting it.” I can only talk to a handful of people and leave the conversation feeling liberated because I don’t feel alone anymore. While my conversations with Brian are very limited, I have the luxury of reading posts like these and his books and listening to him wherever he ends up.
I started theStory because I believed in the Church and its role in the world and I thought that a church like theStory could benefit Sarnia for the sake of the kingdom. As I arrived I realized it was much more the other way around. The downtown community here is more in line with the kingdom than our little community has ever been. Maybe I’m just a sellout, but I really want to know where are the Christians that actually want to live out what it means to follow Jesus and participate in the redemptive narrative? Where are these Christians that truly want to face into the empire and are willing to risk their comfortable, responsible lives to do so? I’m not so sure I’m in the right place for it. At least not with the Christians. We are all so preoccupied in whatever fills up our bank accounts and our little selfish projects that we barely have time to think about what really matters. Then I look out my window and watch as the downtown community flourishes with the relationships, mandate and passion that I long for with my community.
Part of this empowers me and reminds me that this is exactly why I am here. The other half of me is paralyzed because I don’t want to be the bad guy that is calling people out of their comfortable lives. I don’t want to be the hypocrite that falls miserably. I don’t want to start something; I want to join something that already is functioning, or at least feel like there is a community that is with me in aiming for the same things. There is a sense of pride in me that I struggle to get rid of in being enlightened more than the other. It does go hand in hand with a sense of frustration because I feel alone and unsupported. Brian Walsh is doing a series on “getting it” his first post is called On “Not Getting It” and the Virtue of Humility and his second post entitled On “Not Getting It” and God Outside of the Church. Here is a quote from his second one.
You feel that many of your fellow Christians “don’t get it”? Well, tempering this observation with the humility that I referred to in my last post, you are right. Many Christians “don’t get it.” Much of contemporary Christian life has been taken captive by an imperial imagination. So what do we do? Go wherever we can to find a liberated imagination. God will not be without a witness. God will not be without prophetic voices. And God will not be limited to the Christian community when he calls forth such witness, such prophetic voices.