There is Here | Nathan Colquhoun
 

There is Here

January 29, 20221

I said a lot of things
I did even more
I felt little
The focus hasn’t changed though
I’ve been trying to get
There.

Everything said
Everything done
Everything felt
Was everything I had to get
There.

It’s not a place, but sometimes it’s a feeling
It’s not my words, but sometimes it’s yours
And you can’t book flights, but you can book time alone to get
There.

The closer I get
The more compassion I have for myself
And for the world
and i see how blindly I was existing
while still miraculously closer to where I was trying to get
no thanks to any thing i said
or any thing i did
but maybe thanks to the little i felt
which didn’t even come from me

i’m just trying to say (why do i need to say so much)
that i am closer to where i need to be
and feel exhausted at how hard i worked to get here
only to realize that everything
i did and said
just got in the way
and slowed me down
and blinded me
from seeing
sitting
being still
and being grateful that there is here


Nathan Colquhoun

One comment

  • Lynette Stoutenburg

    February 2, 2022 at 10:23 am

    Wow. Your words took me to the four corners of my life looking for my ” there”. I am soon to be 67 and I am just around the corner from my ” there”. I’ve been travelling a long time. How insightful you are. Blessings for your journey!

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